What do you see when you look at me?

I had all this shit to write about last night, and then mom #2 came down here to talk to me, and I've forgotten.

I think I may be leaning towards staying here again. I am absolutely terrified of college, and Shepherd probably wouldn't be as difficult as UW, plus it's less expensive and I would be here with Mando and zee baby. Yes. Sounds good. Not to mention this amazing relationship yo. I don't believe I've ever been connected to someone like this. I usually go through a whole awkward phase when getting to know someone or when we first start dating or whatever, but it was definitely nonexistent in this one. Maybe because we've been working on getting close since July? I have no idea, but I definitely feel like I am at home with Nathan. Bah :] It feels perfect. Creepy, I know. There's so much, ahhh, like how perfect I find his face to be? haha, I'm retarded. Like, I have never been the type to lay there and stare, but I find myself doing so constantly. I really, really, really, like hella, want to stay here and totally stay in his little circle of warmth? haha I cannot think of anything better to say. I sat here for like five minutes thinking of what to say there. That's the best I can do.

We're gonna make it through it all babyyy, we kill it :]