one can only take so much.

Just earlier this evening I was talking to my family about how to deal with awkward situations that your mom puts me in, specifically the genetalia comments, and when Ted suggested a smart ass, rather funny approach to it, mom said, "No, Katie wouldn't do that, she loves Nathan." And now because of those situations I've lost out.

I said a lot of shit I should never have said. Thoughts that should not have become words. And for that I have fucked myself out of ever coming back and given you ammunition for any future arguement. Even though it isn't good enough, I'm sorry.

I know I can do fine without you, but I don't want to. I also know I could probably deal with your mom, but I don't want to do that either. I do not have any right to and should not stand in judgement, or offer my advice on how to make the family situation "better," so I am choosing to remove myself from the setting.

I'm really kind of speechless. I feel lost. You were everything. Goodnight and goodbye.