I think tonight is the night that my relationship falls off that perfect pedestal. Tonight we've brought up an issue that will continue to eat at us until it tears us apart. Great.
I am an optimist. He is a pessimist.
I could not be happier for my mother. She is 50 years old, and has found someone who she may not be head over heels in love with, but she loves all the same. He can be there for her emotionally and financially, and he respects her. I can't remember the last time a man treated my mother with the respect that she deserves. Scott gives me odd jobs, and he hooked me up with a cleaning job at the coast guard. Twenty hours a week, $8.25 an hour. No sick days, federal holidays off, one paid personal day, and more benefits as you work there longer. It's fine as far as a job goes I suppose.
And then. I love Nathan's mom to death. I think she is a wonderful woman, who has dealt with more than I can imagine. I also think she is at a breaking point, and some change needs to come into her life before she collapses. I want her to be okay, almost as much as I would want my own mom to be.
So tell me, why am I paying for the fact that your mom hasn't found anyone yet Nathan?
Why do I have to feel guilty for having a job? Why should I not be happy for my mom?
I am nothing but a supportive girlfriend, through and through. If you or your family ever needed me, you'd only have to wait until I got there, I would be out the door in a split second. I love your mom, and I want her to find someone, I love Jonathan, and I want him to be alright and get through this phase, and I love you, and I want you to do as well as you know you are capable of, not for us, but for you. I believe I already mentioned that if it was reasonable, I would have given half of my jobs to you. But it's not.
So now I sit here, wondering just how pissed you are at me, just how unfortunate it is for us to get like this when something just happened to your friend, and wondering just how much like Keri I am acting for flipping out right now, and how long it will be before your resentment tears us apart.
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I am happy for your mom and Scott and everything that he has been able to give you guys, that being said I mean the happiness that he brings when he's around and what he has been able to do for you by hooking your up with some bank$$
ReplyDeleteI just had a moment of jealousy tonight along with stuff I have just been told about Luke. Yeah, but that doesn't give me any right to have not thought before I spoke on the phone. My mom will find someone just like you said she will and Ive told myself that for a long time, I think that Ive found someone that I can love with my whole heart that her time can't he far away, but even if it is, she will get what she deserves in due time. You are not a thing like Keri. Please don't ever say that you feel you are. I love you so much Katie baby.